After the last couple of days - this is my anthem!!!
I am so glad that I serve a God that is MORE THAN ENOUGH - and I can only hope that my faith will be more than enough - as we continue down the path called life. Sometimes life gets so discouraging, but I know that God is MORE THAN ABLE - to meet my every need, and still take care of everyone else - but sometimes I can't seem to wrap my head around that thought - but I am so so glad that He is willing to love me enough to take care of every small detail of my life.
Just a few thoughts,
As I walk with the King,
I heard a Christian singer, today, talk about the tears of the heart that never make it to the eyes, and I could really identify with that statement. So many times we are taught, even expected at times, to put on a good show, so that no one knows how bad we are truly hurting. Tonight my heart was challenged by this news story: "Officials'>http://www.aolnews.com/crime/article/officials-friends-mystified-by-mayors-murder-suicide/19558041?sms_ss=blogger">Officials, Friends Mystified by Texas Mayor Jayne Peters' Murder-Suicide
Here is a family, supposedly doing well, has everything all together, who is unable to communicate with anyone, of the pain inside of them. I don't know if they were Christians, but it really doesn't matter at this point (for the purpose of my blog). It isn't their actions that I am worried about, it is mine. Now granted, I did not know this family, and so couldn't have done anything to change the circumstances or outcome for these two, but what about the people that I do know, the situations that maybe I could help change.
This last week, a friend of mine's husband had a heart attack. Now this is the same friend, whose son was killed in an automobile accident in March. My heart is challenging me to stop thinking about what is going on in my own life, and step out and minister to them. Now this isn't a problem, because this is the sort of thing that I absolutely love to do. The thing that is so challenging in this, that is kind of scary, is to reach out to others, who's pain might not be so obvious. Back in my late teens, a song was made popular by Steve Green. It really challenged me then, as it is doing tonight.
My prayer tonight becomes : Lord, help me to see with my ears and hear with my heart - the pain, that causes You pain (the tears that might not reach the eyes) - and help my hands and feet to be Your hands and feet to the hurting.
A heavy thought tonight,
As I walk with the King,
Around the beginning of the year, I really felt impressed in my spirit - and then it was backed up in several ways - that God was looking for an "audience of one" with me. Don't ask me where I got that terminology - but it was dropped in my spirit, and it kind of stuck.
I'm not sure how to define an "audience of one" except with a very 'intimate' description. I truly believe that God wants, with each one of us, an extremely intimate relationship with Him and Him alone. We should be able to stand before Him naked and not be ashamed. We should be totally comfortable with Him, and our deepest thoughts, emotions, needs and desires - knowing that in that intimacy - there is complete security and love. He is NOT there to use and abuse us. He knows our thoughts before we even say them, so why not be honest with Him about what is going on inside of us. Psalms 139: 1-18 are such descriptive verses of how intimately God already knows us, long before we even entered this world. Much like a husband/wife, who make love to each other, after years of getting to know each other - completely open, and not ashamed, God so wants to have such an intimate relationship with us. He was willing to give up His most precious possession, His Son, for each one of us, but yet most of the time, we are unwilling to give up, or be inconvenienced for Him.
This song, helps me keep life and my relationship with Christ in perspective. He has already given me more than I have ever deserved, and I need to be able to enter into the Holy of Holy's with nothing hidden, no hidden motives, or agendas - just me, wanting to spend time with my lover - the lover of my soul. We have degraded intimacy to nothing more than a bargaining chip, with which we get what we want. Where in all reality - intimacy is not about me, but about the other person.
So as I work hard at achieving an "audience of one" with the Great Creator of Heaven and Earth, at least for this time, I bring nothing to give but me - asking nothing in return, but knowing that after my 'encounter' I will never be the same, and as time goes on, those changes in me become so deep and ingrained, that I can start loving unconditionally, those around me - because I have learned to love unconditionally and be loved unconditionally by the lover of my soul.
Just something I am learning about,
As I walk with the King,
I really struggled with whether or not I would do any videos blogs during this month - but then I figured I am still writing, just supplementing it with a great song. I love this song - because in many ways it is a song reminding us what is important, maybe even a song of dedication or re-dedication.
One of the things that I love about house sitting, I wrote about this on Friday July 2 "Finding the right key", is I can crank the music and just worship as I want to. To do this in my 5th wheel would be a little difficult, I don't think my neighbors would appreciate my "joyful noise." In a "normal" house, I can sing and dance and just worship freely - call me a fanatic, that is okay - but I absolutely love to spend several hours in worship - it gives me strength to get through my days, and my nights.
For the past few months, I have been going thru what I like to call the "Mt Moriah" experience. Maybe I will write more about this in the coming days, but basically it is a time where God is calling me to do some incredibly difficult things in my life - and maybe that is why this song has become important to me. One of the verses says: "I'll walk with You, wherever You Go, Thru tears and joy, I will trust You." This is something that is really easy to say, or sing, but to live out is a completely different. I'm not bashful about my Faith, I love Jesus more than I love anything else - but I am also able to say that there are many things that I struggle with, and there are so so many questions that I will be asking God about when I get to heaven, because I just don't understand the whys. I know it is not our place to need to know the whys, but it would sure make life easier at times.
The scriptures that keep coming to my mind today are found in 2 Corinthians. I will be taking them out of the Amplified Bible - so bear with me: 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 "We are hedged in (pressed) on every side (troubled and oppressed in every way), but not cramped or crushed; we suffer embarrassments and are perplexed and unable to find a way out, but not driven to despair. We are pursued (persecuted and hard driven), but not deserted (to stand alone); we are struck down to the ground, but never struck out and destroyed." 2 Corinthians 4:16-17 "Therefore we do not become discouraged (utterly spiritless, exhausted, and wearied out through fear). Though our outer man is (progressively) decaying and wasting away, yet our inner self is being (progressively) renewed day after day. For our light momentary affliction (this slight distress of the passing hour) is ever more and more abundantly preparing and producing and achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory (beyond all measure, excessively surpassing all comparisons and all calculations, a vast and transcendent glory and blessedness never to cease."
Now,my take on the above scriptures - life is not going to be easy, people will fail us, and we will fail people. There will be times when we feel as if the entire world is against us, and we are all alone, but even as we are laying in the dust - crying out in pain, Jesus is right there with us, understanding the pain, wrapping us in His arms and just loving us. Our bodies will wear out, whether from age or disease, or even our own actions, but this is not a permanent. This all happens because God is so in love with us that He is preparing us for a "glory" that we can't even begin to imagine. (I do have to admit though, I don't consider this a "light momentary affliction" - lol, but I guess in light of eternity, It probably is just "momentary".
So let me encourage those of you, that are struggling with life right now - Realize that He does hold your world in the Palm of His Hand. He is in charge and loves us all so very much. Learn to say, even thru the rough times "I'll walk with You, wherever You go, thru tears and joy, I will trust You." Does it make our "momentary" circumstances different, No, but at least we realize that we are not alone and He is there to give us the strength that we need to endure.
Just a few thoughts as I walk with the King, Sandy